Cross of the Now

Full breakdown

Gates: 20 the Now, 34 Power, 37 Friendship, 40 Aloneness. Gate numbers: 20.4/37.1, 34.4/40.1.

Here Gates 55 and 59 disappear, and an unusual configuration takes their place: two defined channels formed from two oppositions on the wheel — 37-40 and 20-34. Since this is the most present-tense of all the Crosses, these people are so absorbed in the current moment that, in a sense, they aren't quite anywhere at all. Like the story of someone who remembers every detail of a single glance out a window — ask them to recall something and it takes forever, because they'll recall every single blade of grass.

Being this absorbed in the present, past and future can feel meaningless to them, which can make them genuinely restless, especially as children — worth remembering whenever mapping a child's chart, since the open centers show exactly what conditioning has shaped them.

Someone with this Cross is intensely focused on the present moment, and carries a real underlying difficulty: their energy is split into two separate parts. A Manifesting Generator with the 37-40 channel can get stuck to one side, so absorbed in the moment that they lose touch with the Community channel entirely — which causes real problems, since they may not register that they even have friends, or that other people exist at all. They can get completely lost in their own existential reality — which is, incidentally, roughly how an enlightened person is often described, so don't take all of this too seriously.